Becoming Snow - A Winter Solstice Meditation
Imagine you find yourself on the coldest night of winter suddenly floating free from your warm bed. You are a tiny speck of dust, so very small that you can slip through the crack between the frame and the pane of your frost-covered window into the black and frozen air. You are so light that you rise up; up and up, above the roof of your home, over the tops of the trees, rising higher and higher in the dark night until the lights of the world below you flicker like stars.
Still you rise, higher and higher floating through the light low clouds, passing through frosty glistening crystals of mist. Further and further, up and up until you find yourself within a small cloud. As you move through the mist of the cloud you begin to feel a light tug and you notice that you feel drawn to the minuscule molecules of water vapor that surround you. You affinity to them grows deeper and you begin to feel a longing to unite with the tiny water particles. This desire grows and fills you completely. You want nothing more than to join with the water, to have it hold you and surround you completely.
You have become the seed from which a snowflake will grow and you are poised on the edge of a fantastically beautiful winter journey. You want nothing more than to begin the journey, but you also know that you must wait until you are ready to give yourself over completely.
And so you begin to let go. You let go of all the cares and worries that you have brought with you from the earth below. You let go of your sadness. You let go of your anxiety. You let go of the pain in your bones and muscles. You let go of your fears and even your concerns about the others that you love. You let go of trying to constantly fit the puzzle pieces of your life together and you let go of that overwhelming feeling that you must constantly make everything work.
And as you let go you become lighter and lighter and you begin to see that the shining crystal water molecules have begun to dance and sway around you. You sigh with pleasure as they come closer to you, teasing you and then moving away, again and again. You are ready, oh so ready to join with them, but you must do more than simply let go. And so you dig deeper into the depths of your unconscious mind and release all that is holding you back. You release the guilt. You release the anger and the sorrow. You release your obligation to do what you think others want you to do and simply do this thing that is right for you and you alone.
And when you realize that you are ready, the clear and shining water molecules come closer and they begin to swirl and naturally curve themselves around you in a stunning and glorious syncopated dance. Your delight increases even more and you suddenly feel their chill take hold and you experience the sharp edges of pure freezing begin to fill you. You delight in the clean coldness. You shiver with pleasure as the water molecules begin to hum and attach themselves around you.
You feel totally clear and free. You feel pure and pristine and poised to transform. And at that very moment when you finally surrender, it happens. Icy crystal slivers shoot in six identical arms out from your center.
You gasp as each of your six arms form fractal shoots that end in crispy crystalline edges in perfect formation around you. You tingle with joy as each perfectly pointed arrow strains to stretch further and further in a clear a crystal line that points multiple paths to infinity.
You can feel the cold. You can taste the cold. You ARE the cold. You absorb the clean and bitter frozenness that you have become, the icy light and the exquisite being that is you, a stunningly beautiful, totally unique snowflake that bears witness to the climax of a love that was born from the union of water with a tiny fleck of dust that strayed from the earth.
You are suddenly filled with pure joy! You stretch your crystal arms and you spin and you dance and you float and you fly. You join with the others of your kind. Each utterly different than you and yet so very much the same. You join in a magical community of snow.
And at that moment, you realize that your life is really nothing more than a delightful dance of ice and sharp edges and exquisitely glittering crystal that can float and rise and fall freely in the air.